i've been thinking.. thinking... wat's wrong with me, wat's wrong with the relatinship nwoadays..

I dun deny that I've been more uptight these days.. I know I've been demanding and unreasonable nowadays.. I know my temper is getting from bad to worse nowadays.. I really hope these times will go past fast.. I miss the happy and good times together..

It's only 3 months and we r already facing such problems.. Is this relationship gonna be another destined-to-fail-from-the-start relationship? I dun think so. I know I love him, I know I want him to be mine.

From the initial stage of insecurity, I guess I've moved on to feeling more secure and learnt to trust him more. "for a relationship to last, u need to have trust" How true tat is. I trust u, bb.

I seem to have becoem more and more short circuit, easily short fused these days. I'm getting scared. I"m trying hard not to blow up frequently. I scared u might become another Gerald, I din mention to you that Gerald dumped me cos of my frequent short fuses. I'm scared history will repeat. I am trying to control my temper and give in to you as much as I can. I will do my best to make it work. I'm sure it affects u as much as it did affect me on the relationship problems. Do hope we can work it out soonest.

Miss my bb everyday.

Recently

Recently, my frens told me and i also felt it.. the tension between the 2 of us has been getting more n more tense. I also realised we've been have more and more recent disagreements, unhappiness.

Just this week, we had already 2 unhappy incidents. Sigh.. It sets me thinkin.. about u, about me, about us and our relationship. Is there anything wrong? Do I not love you? or is it I love u too much?

I really dunno wat has gone wrong. I'm very affected by it too. Wat I do know is I definitely still love u, still love u as much as i do every other day, the day b4.

Can anyone gives me an answer?? I love you a lot, BB

Beautiful Love

My Fave song at this moment...

BB, this song is a testament to the love we shared..

看住时间
别让它在再流浪
从前我太适应悲伤
你的出现在无意中
却深深撼动我
一起走着没说什么
心是满足的
这个世界
随时都要崩塌
我没有其它的愿望
假如明天将消失了
趁现在我爱着
只想记得,被你抱着
温热的感受
love's beautiful
so beautiful
我失去过
更珍惜拥有
多庆幸我是我
被你疼爱的我
紧紧牵住的手
不要放手
永远守护我
love's beautiful
so beautiful
我很快乐
你会了解我
我不会再哭泣
是因为我相信
我们勇敢的爱着
每秒钟
都能证明一生的美丽

这个世界
随时都要崩塌
我没有其它的愿望
假如明天将消失了
趁现在我爱着
只想记得,被你抱着
温热的感受
love's beautiful
so beautiful
我失去过
更珍惜拥有
多庆幸我是我
被你疼爱的我
紧紧牵住的手
不要放手
永远守护我
oh~~~~
ah~~~
oh!!
oh~~
ah~~
oh
ah~
love's beautiful
so beautiful
我失去过
更珍惜拥有
多庆幸我是我
被你疼爱的我
紧紧牵住的手
不要放手
永远守护我
love's beautiful
so beautiful
我很快乐
你会了解我
我不会再哭泣
是因为我相信
我们勇敢的爱着
每秒钟
都能证明一生的美丽
love's beautiful
so beautiful

Hao mushy!!!!!!!

Today, after posting the entry just before this, I went to read my own blog again. I realised how mushy my post previously was. Soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo mushy. Ah Pam told me that she read my blog today and indeed it was very mushy but then again, she finds it nice and sweet and also, once again, this is MY blog, so I can write whatever I WAN..

Wahahahahahaha

I know my B is gonna say "you xu yao so mushy ma??" But then again, it's all my true feelings and since the purpose of a blog is for people to write out their innermost feelings, so why not..

Even ah Pam thinks it's nice and sweet, I wonder wat my B thinks..

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm...

:P

Keys to my heart.. some true, some NOT true at all..

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth. In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance. Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage. In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?